this time of year is always shitty for some reason. i always panic about not having enough money to get anyone anything worth while for christmas and the weather makes me want to hang myself.
im going to banff again for a party on friday night. should be fun. i have to write a paper for my stupid class before i leave. fuck i hate right now, it's fucking stressful.
i made some new shit today. i was fucking around with hip hop beats and tapes and detuning synths. sounds ok. i sent it to oddlogic for some feedbacks since he seems to be the expert on that sort of thing. i wish someone would press vinyl of some of my tracks already. im sick of this shit.
actually im sick of making music to be honest. im sick of this shit i make and im sick of being so far away from what my goals are. i wanna make heavy glitchy shit... but it aint happening. or maybe it is. fuck whatever. im worried that the law is eventually going to come after me and i'll get so fucked that i'll never be able to make electronic music again.. or something. i dont know. dont know what im so worried about now, it's not like i do that sound collage shit anymore. but still.
i wanna finish this pd for ios shell for the project rob and i are working on. i want to hit 1000 listens on every song on my soundcloud. i want my website to look way cooler than it does. i wanna play at mutek on the biggest stage to the best audience, and blow their fucking minds. i wanna feel good about my music again.
anyways fuck it. whatever.
here's the track i was working on:
http://www.sendspace.com/file/jihvrb
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